I found out there was a reason why all of the goth girl cartoons were my favorite and why I struggled with trying to walk the seemingly thin line of platonic affection and “acting weird” towards my friends. I feverishly followed as many accounts as I could in an attempt to replace the complete lack of lesbians in my real life and religiously checked for new posts and Instagram stories to see what new thing I could learn about myself. It was so surreal to find that not only did other people have the same experience that I did, they were able to articulate it in such a short, funny, and succinct way that answered so many questions that had plagued me for years. I found myself in a rabbit hole of lesbian memes that had me laughing until I was crying but also actually crying. Once Instagram figured out that I was gay, my explore page was inundated with lesbian content.